Thoughts, inspirations, tea.

My mind feels like it's going a million miles an hour. I have many questions swirling around, I have thoughts of what the future holds, and I'm wondering where my real life is in all of it. I've been having conversations of longing...longing for inspiration, and longing for things we just simply can't have because we either messed them up, or we just aren't in a place of life to have whatever it is we are longing for. It's interesting to me that in the midst of my complaining about the lack of inspiration, it's than the spark comes. I find myself pacing back and forth in the kitchen and in the bathroom with a tooth brush in my mouth, humming tunes while scrambling to find a pen to write down words and thoughts that are stuck in my mind. Lacking inspiration sparks a challenge, and creativity flows. Than comes the late nights of sitting outside with the crickets and evening dew, left over cups of tea in the early morning, and open notebooks filled with random words and paragraphs that sometimes make sense...and others that don't. Do you see the imagery I'm trying to paint here? It's insanity. But it's peace to me, it is my favorite time in life. So here I go again...

June.

How can it be June 2nd already? The blossoms are out on my small orchard, the fields and trees are fashioning different shades of green, and the air is getting warmer and sweeter with each sun-shining day. The U.P. gets spring later than everyone else, so to some it's old news, but that's alright with me. I'm just glad it's here, and summer is well on its way. Its been two months since my last post, and those two months have been filled with a missions trip to Missouri, short road trips visiting friends in Indiana, and other places along the way. I've missed blogging, I'm always getting ideas for a fun post while I go hunting for old dressers and mirrors to paint, or about my ideas for wanting to plant a flower garden in the front yard. I'll probably post before and after pictures of the furniture, and the flower garden may or may not actually happen, but it sure is fun to think about. 

Health and well being have been a reoccurring topic in my life lately...physical, emotional, mental and spiritual health. So, with that being said, I've started running. I jog about two miles every day, to every other day a week, and it feels so good! There's a 5k this weekend I signed up for with friends, and honestly I'm dreading it, but I'm sure it will be okay...it will be a fun time, and it's a good way to support the community by raising money for a local school. Let's jump over to spiritual health. 

The Lord has been teaching me so much about prayer, worship and living in constant communion with Him. I recently did a month music fast where I cut off my favorite top 20 hits, and devoted my music listening times to only that which glorified the Creator. What a difference it made. God used that time to really speak through my times of worship, and silence. I became more sensitive to His voice and to the world around me. I've been reading a book recommended by many for a while now, and it's called "Enter the Worship Circle" by Ben Pasley. Look it up on Amazon and buy it, you won't be disappointed. Ben talks about the powerful art of worship, and challenges the spiritually hungry to seek the Lord in creative and simple ways. How we live our daily lives reflects what we have decided to worship, because we all worship something...I pray that my life will always reflect true worship of the One of saved my soul, and I pray that for anyone who is a follower of the Good News. 

Prayer Request:


The Lord has always had Ireland on my heart ever since I was a little girl, and I've always wanted to visit the country, live with the locals; learn the culture, and experience a more simple lifestyle. Back in February or March, the weight and urge to live out this dream made itself more apparent through dreams and conversations with people, and I decided to do some research into missions for Ireland. I didn't think I would find anything quite honestly, but I found a lot. I didn't know YWAM (Youth With A Mission) had multiple bases out there, but now I do, and I feel like that could be my next possible adventure.
http://www.ywamireland.org  Feel free to check it out, they have a great ministry for the people of Ireland to bring back peace and reconciliation, and a vision of living a kingdom lifestyle through community and diversity. Please pray for these people, and for me as I take steps to embark on this new journey.

Time for a warm up of Indonesian Java...more updates soon.

Happy Spring

              Ahh I love sunshine...its amazing what it can do for one's day.

Zeb loves the beach, I'm pretty sure it's his favorite. And thats okay, because it's mine too.

Happy Spring!

You give me miles and miles of mountains, and I ask for the sea.

Its the last day of March, and I think spring is here to stay...I think. I'm not apologizing for waiting so long to post this time, I kind of like this once in a while deal. Its like one of those friends who you see once in a blue moon, catch up real quick, and move on with your life. I have lots of pictures and stories I should post, pictures of ice caves and glaciers around Presque Isle, pictures of homemade granola that turned out great, and I'm sure there are other great things that I will get around to soon. Not tonight though. 


It's late...I need to wake up early. I napped for hours this evening, so now I'm paying the price of early rest...oh well. Early mornings have become my favorite time of the day, I love how still everything is, I love watching the sun come up, and I love spending that time with the Lord. Everything seems perfect in those first few hours of the day.  


Life has been going well, busy, but not stressful. I feel like I've checked out this week however, I've shut myself and my phone off multiple times, but thats okay...I think we all need those days. It's in these kind of days and nights that inspiration and creativity seem to come more easily, so I welcome them. I know exactly why I've been so disconnected, but I don't want to talk about it. I've been scared lately, I feel insecurities rushing back, and I want to go back to the way things were...but than I remember who has my life in His hands, and I know the Lord is taking care of everything. Its a sigh of relief, and He makes me content in all things.


My gypsy blood is making me anxious for traveling again, but I need not worry because the traveling season is starting up very soon.  I'm still in love with Ireland, and as long as the Lord says yes, I'll be going there next summer. In saying that, here's one of my favorite Irish artists...




Goodnight loves...

I'm late, and feeling rather indifferent.

 I'm late...as far as posting goes, and so are my books from the Library.  I had this goal in my head that I wanted to blog at least weekly, but that never happens, and I don't really think I'll be making that happen anytime soon. But, I figured out how to post songs on here, which made me super happy. So, along with pictures, music will be added frequently (my idea of frequent maybe be different than yours.) Anyway, whats new? Quite a bit, actually. I'm feeling rather indifferent about all the busyness though. Life is good. In the midst of feeling like I'm running all the time, it's very calm. Far from complacent however, which is a very good thing. I'm learning new things, growing, being stretched, and stepping out in faith as the Lord shows himself faithful more, and more everyday. Early mornings and late nights are still my favorite, the sunrises and sunsets over the lake have been my constant companion over the past few weeks...I wouldn't have it any other way. Music has been written, and I think I'm falling in love with it again. Hope all is well for those of you who are reading, enjoy your spring break, (if you get one), and may you be filled with peace. 

A different kind of grey...

Today was warm and grey, the sky and lake matched each other in different shades. Grey is one of my favorite colors, so it was calming. It has been raining here off and on, and February has snuck up on me.  I keep forgetting what day and month it is. Oh well, life goes on...

A thought to end your day...

For it is not so much of our time and so much of our attention that God demands; it is not even all our time and all our attention; it is ourselves. For each of us the Baptist’s words are true: “He must increase and I decrease.” He will be infinitely merciful to our repeated failures; I know no promise that He will accept a deliberate compromise. For He has, in the last resort, nothing to give us but Himself; and He can give that only insofar as our self-affirming will retire and make room for Him in our souls. Let us make up our minds to it; there will be nothing “of our own” left over to live on, no “ordinary life… What cannot be admitted – what must exist only as an undefeated but daily resisted enemy – is the idea of something that is “our own”, some area in which we are to be “out of school,” on which God has no claim. For He claims all, because He is love and must bless. He cannot bless us unless He has us. When we try to keep within us an area that is our own, we try to keep an area of death. Therefore, in love, He claims all. There is no bargaining with Him.” -C.S. Lewis from "A slip of the tongue" (The Weight of Glory)